dispelling space

I lie awake at night
my mind filling the room
thoughts holding my eyelids up tight

I think back

to your soft white sheets
the warmth of your skin
as I slid my arm around your waist
nestled my head in the crook of your back

I feel safe if only for a few moments

Im not in love with you anymore

but that doesn't mean I don't miss you
or sometimes pretend someone else is you

I wish things were different
you were different
I was different

I wish those sheets and that soft warm body was here with me
in this lonely negative that dispells my space

I can hear only my breathing
but sometimes
I close my eyes so
I can hear yours too